Post 1 - Help me please

OK so I'm pretty late to this blogging phenomenon. I've heard of it but never tried it. So is blogging like having a diary? Right, whatever, I'll just sit and write what I think and see how I feel after that then.

So why have I entitled my very first post as 'help me please' and the whole blog as HELP or is it helpmemakeadecision - see I'm confused even to what my blog is called!  Anyway it's called something like that mainly because I simply just can't make decisions.

But at the moment the big decisions are - how do I find a job I like and can do - what am I good at - how can I keep the roof over our heads when my son leaves education and all the benefits stop.

Ok here is some background information on my life at the moment:

• single parent for 16 years (no sex in last 5yrs)
• 15 year old son
• 83 year old mother living with us
• haven't had a career/'proper job' for 10 years
• not stupid but suffer from low self esteem and depression
• overweight and unfit
• was in the ambulance service then went to art school
• never found my purpose in life
• no idea what I'm good at
• have one sister living in New Zealand and one just started her own business (very successfully)
• a complete procrastinator

Well that was interesting - for me anyway - I'm sure not for anyone else. But, how do I feel now? Still confused and not very enlightened, stupid, as if writing it down would make me feel any better. So now I guess I press publish, oh well here goes then, wish me luck, I have no idea where this post ends up, just out there in the ether I'm guessing.